Saturday, August 20, 2011

silence

When things are bad, I shut down.

Do you do that?

I take the phone off the hook, I don't go out, I don't speak.

It isn't because I have nothing to say. It's because the things I would say are too big. They might hurt people. They might hurt me.

Right now, I have a lot of heavy stuff going on in my life. I may blog about it but if I do, I'll be guest posting somewhere anonymously.

In the meantime, I'm finding it really hard to talk about light stuff - which is why my blog has been so neglected.

I hope you'll stick with me.

This will all be over one day.

18 comments:

  1. Oh Toni, I'm sorry things are not the best at the moment. I do hope that life gets easier, lighter, brighter soon.
    I'll be here waiting to read your words when you're ready.

    ReplyDelete
  2. thanks chick. That means more than you know.

    ReplyDelete
  3. I'm so sorry to hear you are wading through a hard time. Wishing you positive, warm vibes. Here when it's time. :-)

    ReplyDelete
  4. I'm so sorry to hear you are wading through a hard time. Wishing you positive, warm vibes. Here when it's time. :-)

    ReplyDelete
  5. We'll be here waiting, when you're ready. Be well.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Hope things get better for you soon.

    ReplyDelete
  7. I'm sorry to hear you're having a bad go of it.
    Guest post at my place whenever you like - mi casa es su casa. Get it all out - you'll feel better. And there's always the delete button if it doesn't work :-)
    xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  8. :( I hope you come out the other end soon, Toni!

    ReplyDelete
  9. I'm worried about your chickie. Thinking of you, sending warm thoughts. xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  10. chin up ... we are here when you need us xxxxxxxxx

    ReplyDelete
  11. Know exactly how you feel. Sometimes though writing it out, whether here or just on paper helps me. Sending hugs from Perth xxx

    ReplyDelete
  12. Always popping in and checking in on you, Toni. I'll always be here.
    I hope things start to improve for you soon. Take care of yourself. xx

    ReplyDelete
  13. I just want to thank each one of you who took the time to comment on this post. It means a great deal to me.
    Thankyou.

    ReplyDelete
  14. It took me five days to get to the back of my feedreader backlog and see this post, which makes me a very bad blogging friend...but I'm still here too, and also wishing you comfort and easier times, and looking forward to you writing again.
    Take care xx

    ReplyDelete
  15. Hello beautiful lady. Apologies for being absent ... I've kinda fallen off the blogatron a little when it comes to visiting others. I just wanted to let you know that I am only an email away. If you need to vent I am a good "listener".
    Love and hugs and butterfly kisses
    L

    ReplyDelete
  16. Hello lovely lady (you really are Rita Hayworth reincarnated - and don't forget she was a bon-e-fied princess)

    We ALL have things that are too big to verbalise a few times in our lifetimes. Most of the time though, we can't get over it until we let go of it.

    I always find that telling a dog the problem is the best answer. They sit with you without complaining, they let you gently touch them without wriggling away, they never turn to you and say "I know - when I I I . . . , AND at the end of your verbal vomit they turn their head on its side and lick your face.

    So go find yourself a strange dog and let it all out :) xoxox

    ReplyDelete
  17. Dammit - I hit the button twice - sorry. L. Pia

    ReplyDelete
  18. It's all good Pia, I fixed it.

    YOU ARE THE LOVELIEST BUNCH OF READERS, do you all know that? I feel very privileged to 'know' you all.
    xxx

    ReplyDelete

Hey, thanks for taking the time to leave a comment. I love to hear what you have to say even if you disagree with me. I have only one request -- please keep it polite.
Thankyou.

xx