Have you ever tried to do the right thing, and it ended up to be the wrong thing, and then you had a ton of crap dropped on you? But deep down, you knew that no matter what you did, it was always gonna be the Wrong Thing anyway?
Of course you did. You're human. And dealing with Other Humans is just plain bloody hard at times.
Here's a Big Revelation.
I'm Not Perfect.
I didn't actually get a manual on how to do everything right, every time. If I had, I would have READ IT!!
I'm just muddling through life as best I can, I'm as ignorant and clueless as everybody else, and I fuck up. Often.
Here's the thing. I don't usually WANT to, though.
(There is a list of people that I DO want to screw over, if possible. It's really short. There are two people on it. YOU aren't either of them, I bet. I'm pretty sure that if you're thinking "OOH, is it me?" it's not. Both those people would know, for sure.)
The whole problem with people, as best I can figure out, is that we all have glasses on. Like Perception Filters. We see what we want to see.
If you want to see someone's efforts at a Good Deed as evil, you will, no matter what they do.
If you want to see the best in people, and believe in them, you will. No matter what they do.
Me, I don't want to see the bad. I'm not naive, I know it's there, but basically I like to think that everyone has reasons for the things they do, and that mostly we're all just trying to get by.
As you grow older, and you grow up, you start to realise that you're not perfect yourself, and so you're hardly in any position to expect anyone else to be.
Obviously, I can't say what's going on here, not the specifics, anyway. I'm just over being painted as A Bad Person, when I'm no badder than anyone else, and considerably better than many.
Just please, if you're a praying person, which I'm not anymore, pray that the truth gets seen for what it is.
Because I'm done with fighting it. It hurts too much.