Tuesday, April 10, 2012

truth and consequences

People are tricky. You know?

Have you ever tried to do the right thing, and it ended up to be the wrong thing, and then you had a ton of crap dropped on you? But deep down, you knew that no matter what you did, it was always gonna be the Wrong Thing anyway?

Of course you did. You're human. And dealing with Other Humans is just plain bloody hard at times.

Here's a Big Revelation.

I'm Not Perfect.

I didn't actually get a manual on how to do everything right, every time. If I had, I would have READ IT!!

I'm just muddling through life as best I can, I'm as ignorant and clueless as everybody else, and I fuck up. Often.

Here's the thing. I don't usually WANT to, though.

(There is a list of people that I DO want to screw over, if possible. It's really short. There are two people on it. YOU aren't either of them, I bet. I'm pretty sure that if you're thinking "OOH, is it me?" it's not. Both those people would know, for sure.)

The whole problem with people, as best I can figure out, is that we all have glasses on. Like Perception Filters. We see what we want to see.

If you want to see someone's efforts at a Good Deed as evil, you will, no matter what they do.

If you want to see the best in people, and believe in them, you will. No matter what they do.

Me, I don't want to see the bad. I'm not naive, I know it's there, but basically I like to think that everyone has reasons for the things they do, and that mostly we're all just trying to get by.

As you grow older, and you grow up, you start to realise that you're not perfect yourself, and so you're hardly in any position to expect anyone else to be.

Obviously, I can't say what's going on here, not the specifics, anyway. I'm just over being painted as A Bad Person, when I'm no badder than anyone else, and considerably better than many.

Just please, if you're a praying person, which I'm not anymore, pray that the truth gets seen for what it is.

Because I'm done with fighting it. It hurts too much.


  1. I am a praying person, and I know that even tho I don't 'know' you... I know that you are not A Bad Person.
    Someone said this to me not long ago that has helped when I've been facing 'haters.'

    "...the need to criticize simply belies a longing for recognition, appreciation, and validation. None of which, however, can be obtained through criticism."

    The truth will get seen for what it is. It always does.


  2. Thanks Cindi. I thought I was OK with this, but your comment made me cry (in a good way). Bless you. x

  3. Yep.
    Unfortunately many people create their own versions of the 'truth' - one that usually serves their purpose.
    It can be so, so hard to rise above that - especially when you're the fall guy.
    I'm so sorry that you're having such an unfair struggle at the moment.
    I wish you lots of strength and patience as you wait for the real truth to emerge - it always does in the end.

  4. There are some people, that once they've made up their mind, will not see any different. It doesn't matter what you say or do. To admit that they may be wrong, that their perceptions may be wrong, means that they may have to take a proper look at themselves. And maybe they'll see faults in themselves that they don't want to know about. So its easier to keep believing what they have been.

    I'm no longer a prayer, but I do believe that eventually, the truth will be seen. Sometimes, it can take so long for the truth to be seen, that people, and this case you, end up getting hurt. You shouldn't have to keep fighting this. I hope your truth is seen for what is, and I hope it is soon. xxx

  5. I'm not a praying person, but I hope you get this sorted out soon.
    I prefer to see the good in life and in people too, some have told me I'm living in La-La land. From their point of view, I probably am, but I like it this way. I see good, I do good (without being a goody-two shoes) and I get good in return.

  6. My Friend..
    I will Always pray for you - esp as you don't pray for yourself :)
    The truth is out there!

  7. You're good girlfriend. Know it. We all do! Good luck x

  8. AGREE 100% with "jade" Toni !!!!!
    we all know it ... YOU JUST NEED TO AS WELL xxxxx


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