Not the best day of my life.
But not the worst, either. THAT was exactly 14 years ago today, when I woke up in the morning with a healthy, happy 48 day old baby, and before lunch, was sitting in a doctors' surgery trying to come to grips with the fact that the baby was now dead.
After that one, came the funeral - pretty close second - and really, everything else pales by comparison.
For the first time in 10 years, I'm living again in the town where it all happened. I drive past the house I was living in, the surgery where they tried to revive him, the funeral home, the shop where I bought funeral outfits for my other kids (now THAT'S a surreal experience) -- and of course, the cemetery. I've been past it a few times but I haven't 'visited' yet. Later today.
I can't wait for tomorrow.
Oh Toni! I didn't realise you were back where it all happened. It's all soooo sad. :(
ReplyDeleteThinking of you darling.
Toni.. xxxxx
ReplyDeleteFeeling your pain and wishing you did not. xxx
ReplyDeleteOMGoodness Toni that would be soooo very hard.
ReplyDelete{{{HUGS}}}
Been sitting here for ten minutes trying to think of something to say but I can't. Love you, darling XXXXX
ReplyDeleteThis is sad Toni. Will you have company when you visit the cemetery? I think you should have someone with you.
ReplyDeleteHi Toni,
ReplyDeleteIm sorry you had to go through this. You and him are in my thoughts today especially. I hope you got to go out today. Hugs from me
Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. You're in my thoughts and in my heart.
ReplyDeleteWish I could be there to give you the biggest hug.
ReplyDeleteI feel every ounce of your heartache, if only I could take some of it away.
I can't even imagine. Even though I don't know you, you will still be in my thoughts today. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteThinking of you darl... sending you big hugs XXXXXXXXXXXX
ReplyDeleteOnly just read this. My heart breaks with yours - perhaps our angels are playing in heaven's garden together. The pain never goes away.
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